Thursday, November 17, 2011


Thanks to Stephanie McClish, I am probably going to have fat-mares tonight.

She emailed me some pictures of my former self from a couple of months before we both started bjj in 2009. I am in a bathing suit. It is one of the most haunting, horrifying images that I have seen in a long time. And, before you ask, there is no chance in hell that I will be posting these pictures anywhere on the internet. It would probably be deemed an act of terrorism and I can't deal with being arrested right now.

Here is one that is still uncomfortable for me to look at, but doesn't make me want to gouge my eyes out with #2 pencils:

Here's one at Noah's first Christmas. I was still carrying a lot of baby weight. And other various fatness weight. At this point, I was tippin' the scales at 175lbs. I won't show the pictures from just after I had Noah, but I will reveal the horrifying truth that I weight 204lbs at my heaviest before I gave birth.
Here is one from about a year later. I had been trying to lose weight by walking and lifting weights at home. I wanted to get into better shape, but at that point I felt like I'd hit a wall and didn't know how to get past it. 
I weighed around 155 lbs.

This is me now:

 At the last NAGA I went to. I weighed in at 129 lbs.

At the Miami Open
 For Halloween 

The one good thing about seeing how overweight I was is that I can see how much my physical health has improved since I started bjj. It's more than just the number on the scale.My body works better. I feel better. And I have learned some awesome Jiu-Jitsu on top of it

I am thankful that jiu-jitsu had become a part of my life. I'd still be a beluga whale without it. I know so many women who are unhappy with where they are as far as health and weight goes. They feel like they don't know where to start. I know Jiu-Jitsu isn't for everyone. But I can also say without a doubt that it works.If you consistently train bjj, you will lose weight, gain muscle, be stronger and healthier. It has also changed how I eat--I look at food as fuel instead of entertainment, now--and it helps me live healthier that way too. If you are thinking about making a change, try BJJ. It's not a diet. It's a lifestyle change.

It works.  


Aparna said...

Maybe I'm crazy (or I'm just terrible at gauging "fatness" in photos), but to be honest you don't look a whole lot bigger in the earlier pictures. What is way more noticeable, however, is the amount of muscle you have now. I think that, (and even far more so, how you feel) is way more important. Well done!!

Jiujitsunista said...

When I first saw the title of this blog, I was terrified you posted the pictures I sent you, and I was going to have to murder you. lol

I can tell how much weight you've lost just by looking at your face. (And boobs. Gosh! lol) Obviously your body as well, but it's really apparent in you face.

Shark Girl said... are amazing! Of course, you look amazing in all the pictures. Baby fat is righteous.

I spent last night working on a weight post, which will probably go up next week. Not that I have issues . . .


Laura said...

I agree, BJJ definitely works for weight loss.


Veronica said...

Good for you!! My husband has lost (and kept off) 60 pounds since he started BJJ in 2009. I've dropped 20 and my goal is to get rid of 20 more. I'm stronger than I have ever been in my entire life. I think the best part of BJJ is the confidence you get in what your body can DO. One of the girls I train with always says BJJ bodies look the best. I totally agree.

BJJ Judo said...

In the interest of full disclosure I think you are obligated to show the true before and after pics.

Anonymous said...

Amazing. Totally agree with the "lifestyle" phrase.

(though in my case, I hope BJJ helps me gain weight! :) )