Tuesday Night...

...was one of those nights. I didn't feel good about my performance. We practiced a take-down drill that took me longer to get the hang of than normal. Then, when we grappled at the end of class, I didn't do as well as I had hoped. In the previous class I ended up popping a couple capsules in Stephanie's elbow and I was afraid of doing that again. So I was too timid in my grappling. I gave up several submissions because my partner wasn't tapping. He's was newbie like me and my instructor told me that newbies sometimes don't know when to tap. I didn't want to take any chances, so I let go of several submissions.

It was really frustrating.

There's also another thing that is weighing me down. Literally. ;) It's my fatness. I found out that I am a few pounds to heavy to qualify for the weight division I want to be in for the November N.A.G.A. tournament. The reason why it matters is--at my current weight--I will be one f the smallest ones in my division. I know that weight and size shouldn't matter in Jiu-Jitsu, but when you're a newb and your technique sucks, it kinda does matter. lol.

I'm already getting plenty of exercise. I walk every morning for an hour and again at night for an hour. I do the warm-up exercise from class every day and I do shrimping, hip-outs and take-down drills every day. This is all on top of my actual jiu-jitsu classes. Despite this exercise, I haven't been losing weight. So clearly it is my diet that is killing me.

I don't eat like crap, but there are things I can do. I am cutting out all soda and junk food from my diet. I drink diet sodas, but they're not good for me, so they're gone. And I admit I have a weakness for salty carbs like chips and cheez-its.

Goodbye yummy fattening snacks. Hello celery and salad? Boo!!! I have to find some healthy snacks to munch on in the afternoons.

But anyway, that's where I am right now. Looking forward to having a better lesson on Thursday. And looking forward to being less squishy in a few months. By God's grace and power, it will happen! :)